Friday, May 9, 2008

Happy Mothers Day to you ALL!  
Hopefully my video will work, we will see.  It is quite nice.  I wanted to recognize my Mom this Mothers Day.  And a card will not do this year.  

I have always thought of Mothers Day as a Hallmark holiday, so I really truly thought , 'No this will be not especially hard, because I have never put a great deal of effort into Mothers day anyway'.  But I am finding that is not the case...
People have made subtle comments, to me, here and there about the upcoming Mothers day, insinuating that it would be extra tough to endure, being my first without Mom. 
 

I can not figure out if I am being extra emotional because of: 
1)  'peer pressure'- the suggesting of others? 
 2) because I did not give a great deal of thought to it when Mom was alive, regret emotions?  3) if yes, it is a reminder that she is not here, and I can not get her some very insignificant gift to recognize her motherdome? 
 Either way, it has turned to be a bit emotional for me, at least today. 

 I do miss Mom, sharing the day, knowing she was there, telling about the grandkids, (hers and mine).  She was not a perfect person, had her irritating ways, but she was my mom, and she was always there. She usually always understood me, and when she did not she tried.  She was happy with who I was, what I did, even if it was not who she was or how she would do it.  

I have been 'strong' and taken Mom's death (and Dad's) death 'in stride'. 
 I have done the business that needs to be done, I have controlled my emotions(mostly).
 Mom and Dad did not raise me to be needy or clingy.  They raised me to be an adult. 
 I have not wanted to burden my family and friends with my weakness'. 
 My childish tears.   
Now though, I am feeling that I have not honored, recognized the loss of Mom, my mother,
 at least in a way that others would know, 
she is a missed soul, and my soul aches for her... 
In honor of Mom on Mothers day.  

Also I hope for you to remember those you love now,
while they are here on earth, cherish, appreciate. 
The day will come soon enough and it will be gone with them.

Mothers day You Tube Video

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Time keeps a ticking and life keeps a goin...

The picture on the previous blog is one I had copied for Mom for her digital frame, for this past Christmas.  It is of Mom, Dad, Mike, Kirk Papaw and myself (the girl) I can only assume Mamaw is the photographer.   I thought it nice to post some kind of pict on each blog, and that seemed as good as any.

After making my list of Get Er Dones, and Pray for us because of all the got and get we have. I looked again at the picture.  Not to sound morose but all in the picture, except Mike and I have no more 'Get Er Done' lists to accomplish.   Truly after looking at my list, I am a bit envious.

It is amazing how much can be crammed in a few months, days,moments! A life time.  I hope that what I cram into mine will be of worth.  I hope I do what God intends me to do, to minister to those I should, to experience what I should and learn what He wants me to know.  Especially to cherish what He gives me to cherish.

In our list you will see up and coming events:  Evan Graduating. Us Moving. Us Building a House.  Most exciting and daunting.  

We (Keith and I) will live in a travel trailer until we get the walls and roof on the shop and house, then probably live in both the shop and trailer.  We will build the house mostly ourselves, contracting out the things we have to.  

Of the bare necessities we will have at our 'little' home is internet.  I will do my best to blog the house progress, it should be-WILL be fun!!  

Be watching and waiting.... More to come... Especially about Evan very soon

MMM.... Most ironic, Time may keep ticking, but my watch is not. Not a lie, the afternoon after this post I looked at my watch and realized no it was not 11:20 nor 4:50-- 

Back to Blogging, maybe


Man oh Man, I was afraid it would be a bust on this blog stuff.  I really really have good intentions, truly want to do this. It is just like mailing out BDay cards to everyone! Really think about birthdays, actually have them all entered in my ical on the computer. Thanks to Mom being so together as to have put them all on a little calendar years ago, I have ALL pertinent dates. like my great grandmothers birthday and death date.  For some weird reason though they all fell off of my calendar recently, but no worry, I have the calendar Mom made and reentered.  

Now of course I can now look on the calendar anytime and see who's birthday or anniversary is coming up, I can think of a neat card or even a good e-card to send. Always do. Then weeks later I see the date that has passed and remember my good intention to wish some one 'Happy Whatever'.   
But I am blogging now, so I must concentrate on the matter at hand. I am blogging, finally!
Blogging on not following through to blog, but still blogging!  

I will do better REALLY!.  I wonder though if anyone will even read this? Since nothing has hit the web since my announcing my blog. Does this announce to every one on my list I am 'active' alive and working?  We will see.  

This is officially my 'new' announcement of up and running...

Also a request, those that are getting this who are 'invited' ie: Uncle Gene, Angie, EJ, Ash,  could you send me the addresses of Billings people, Akers people and the like?  I had lists from the recent passings, but yet one more good intention gone array , the lists are not in the notepads I thought they were...